TheBend: A fusion of insights from creative professionals, discussing concepts of the artistic Mind Body and Soul. The Bend dives deeper through a broad range of grounded topics often questioned by dancers and creative professionals, with a foremost reminder to be present in the process.
At the start of my column, I vowed to myself to make a conscious effort not make my pieces too personal. I wanted to base my articles solely on interviews and research, not to write about my own thoughts; I’m not an expert…why would people want to hear what I have to say? Well it’s changing. Not because suddenly I think people need to hear what I have to say, but for my own personal reasons, I need to hear what I have to say.
After 14 years, I am retiring from being a professional dancer. There. I said it.
I’ve been blessed with a career that has surpassed my wildest dreams. Since 2002, I have been a part of the Aspen Santa Fe Ballet, traveling the world, performing over 45 works (with 18 created on me)… I’ve lived a dancers’ dream.
I feel fulfilled.
So why is it so difficult? I am a happily married woman, with exciting future goals and dreams with my husband. Yet, this pending transition, and thought of it, is one of the hardest, emotionally draining, exhausting experiences I have ever created for myself. Why? And how can I process it in an effective way.
Well, that’s what we will attempt to get to the bottom of. In my next columns, I am going to use The Bend as a source of reflection and contemplation of this life change. I’m about 6 months out from my final performances, and although many of the tough decisions have been made, and emotions stirred up, I need another outlet to guide me through this process. I thank you in advance for sticking with me, and for your support as I strive to be present in my process.
I remember when you first got the job with Aspen…I cant believe you are stopping…should I stop too??? 🙂 🙂 🙂
We should discuss that my friend… but it is a bit too long of a conversation for the comments section:-).
Then you^d have time to visit us here Sam! 🙂
You can be so proud of your amazing and inspiring career! I am grateful for all the times I got to see you grace the stage. The thought of not being on stage is terrifying, I’ve gone through it numerous times, yet keep finding myself performing. Perhaps your time might extend beyond 6 months, there’s a whole wide world of freelance out there! = ) All the best Sam, and we’ll be with you through the process.
[…] *This article is part of a series following the last months of my 15 year professional dance career with Aspen Santa Fe Ballet. To start at the ‘beginning of the end’ so to speak, check out https://interviewenlair.com/6-months-soul/. […]
[…] *This article is part of a series following the last months of my 15 year professional dance career with Aspen Santa Fe Ballet. To start at the ‘beginning of the end’ so to speak, check out https://interviewenlair.com/6-months-soul/. […]