In recent years I’ve witnessed conversations in the dance community about choreographic saviors of the ballet, but the truth is they’re mostly white men connected to some large ballet institution. I have no animus towards these choreographers or institutions, but at this point from my perspective the game looks extremely tilted in their favor . Bear with me as I explain my outlook.

In NYC where I am based they’re many institutions outside of the ballet world that are dedicated to fostering the next generation of choreographers. But immediate trends bend towards hybrid work or works with a social justice component. My current pieces might be described as pure dance with a technical element. While you can see these types of creations around the city, institutions that I look up to don’t seem enthused.  While black choreographers working within a cultural and social justice impetus are applauded, at this time my pain and direct cultural links are not feeding my movement. So, is there room within these institutions for me to practice my kind of work? Having access makes the difference, but current dogmas are approaching a purity test in search of the other. As a black gay choreographer there is more to me than a black gay choreographer. While others in the industry thrive, I feel boxed in as what to say to these dance institutions looking for their support. I ask should not our leaders and institutions support what the artist is ultimately trying to say… Am I not seen as a serious artist or candidate for funding?

As I’ve written and applied for various programs and initiatives to receive backing, one gets the feeling that the essays are winning. The appearance of sounding intelligent is more valued than just simply choreographing. Clarity to express oneself with words goes a long way, but I am a choreographer through and through. I fear I will be making work just to please the selection committee.  But with any institutional funding received I hope it will reinforce my artistic voice.

Since Ulysses Dove’s passing, I’ve looked for role models like him who’ve attained his level of success and access in the ballet world. There are a few choreographers of various ethnic backgrounds who’ve garnered attention working with regional companies. But cracking the ceiling of the top 5 U.S. ballet companies is another thing. Our white counterparts on the other hand move briskly from New York, San Francisco, Miami, Seattle and Houston then back again. I know some are trying with different diversity initiatives with invitations to work with students and 2nd companies, but we’ve seen examples of driven directors giving 1st time commissions on main companies. I believe in doing the work I will find a way, but looking at who’s repeatedly programmed can be very disheartening.

During this time of heightened racial tension and surging income inequality, I would like to see the decision makers make more thoughtful investments. As the conversations on inclusion and diversity on a multitude of levels continue, I do hope actual opportunities will arrive for me and others simply seeking to put music and dance together.